In The Natural

Sitting at the house
looking out the window
past the balcony
thinking how good
my life is
holding onto to hope
for the coming of abundance
in all aspects of living
but my earthen woman
is distracted almost distraught
at the truth because
in the natural
there is a sense of lacking
in companionship
bill paying
activities that resemble
fun
laughing sometimes
at reality but
overflowing giggles
while viewing television
eating less than normal
needing my own personal
garden of fruits and vegetables
travelling around the world
is only in my dreams
knowing full well that
fulfilling my purpose on earth
is the beginning of my means
to my end so I wait with great hope
but
in the natural
I'm a wreck.