My Flesh

My flesh says what you say
I hear your
screams
for blood lost,
and I shed tears
at the thought of
dead justice

My reason says
this could have been avoided
in so many ways
blood lost
shed tears
dead justice

My motherhood
says I've lost my child
my heart grieves
but he's safer now
can I change tomorrow
for some other mother

My Spirit says
be comforted in knowing
God will take care of
the unjust as well as the peace makers
trailblazers
and the martyrs
blood lost
shed tears
dead justice

My flesh wants what it wants
retaliation
vindication
annihilation
but that makes me no
better than the
oppression
disguised
as self defense