Silence Isn't Golden for Me

I detest the sound of silence it's grossedly loud.
Keeps me so occupied I can't think straight has my mind in a fog.

I hear voices of variety all except the one my heart's tuned for.

Silence monopolizes my energy, controls the very being that keeps trying to get free.

Silence sucks up my common sense, gets all my attention, rationale takes a flight.
Jet noise is a cousin, they both together shake me to my core.

Silence is the response that questions equate to ignore, it's the sound of broken glass tossed across the room by the eyes of jealousy looking through a tinted sliding door.

Silence is broken, she's now stretched out on the floor, nothing’s flowing right.
She's a sponge, silence eradicated, absorbed!

Misrepresentation

Where can he be.
Heaven only knows.
A representative keeps showing up.
Has me fooled from the start.
Because he looks authentic from the onset.
And has a vernacular that strikes the cord.
Of my inner connections.
We exchange info.
Starting with an interesting convo.
His stimulating qualities.
Capture me.
I have no repellent.
At that moment.
Don’t even recognize.
Excrement.
Turns out.
His stand in.
Is inadequate, insipid.
Insufficient.
Without taste to be pleasing.
To my inner energies.
Rather bland.
I’m still waiting for the real man.
Distinguished.
A man of his word.
Doing and speaking.
After 5pm and
All weekend.
Time for me.
Not optional just plain priority.
I’m not stupid.
Neither is he.
Must just be some.
Interference.
Between him and me.

Sick of It!

Got my hands around your neck
Holding down all that is within me
Trying to rise up to the surface
And drown me.

Like postprandial pain.
After every meal.
You're predictable.
Regular.
Almost disgusting.
Please leave me alone.

Head In The Toilet 14

Don’t know why.
Some men.
Feel the need to lie.
It’s okay to greet me.
With a hello and a smile.

But please stop asking.
For my phone number.
If you know you gon’
Start lying to me.
After while.

The first time.
I start to recognize.
A pattern.
Imma stop responding.
And start reacting.

I won’t be messy.
Or even hot tempered.
Matter of fact.
Imma be so cold.
You’ll think it’s winter

I Ain't Never Been Scared.

I have carried containers of substances
With both these hands
That left my nostrils
Exposed to scents
And still been able
To smile.
Ask God, He'll tell you.

Secretly I Wanted

Secretly I wanted.
Him to find me.
Busy.
Doing something, anything.
Besides waiting
obviously,
For him to come into my life.

I wanted him to roll.
Up on me with a plan.
An agenda.
A word.
A word of confirmation to match.
The word I already heard.
Sounding like bookends.
That keep chapters of my life together.
Standing up.
Tall.
And out from the other fictional ones.

Secretly I wanted him
To know what kind of Woman.
I was by my presence, my essence.
His prayer in the day to .
His universal life line.
To listen and hear the
Dominance in my voice, laced with
A thread of compassion, security and
Feminity!

Puppy Love

Puppy love kinda feelings.

I'd walk a hallway mile.

To see him.

Standing there in a uniform

That says security

Authority.

I'd sweat.

Just floating on a cloud.

To be near him

To whisper

To hold his memory

In my hand.

Bring me an umbrella

To keep me covered.

In the rain.

Wind blown away.

I'd get wet.

To be near him.

A turn.

Around U style.

He's so close.

A phone call.

Within reach.

But I'll keep dreaming.

Feel Good Dotted Lines

Good feelings.
smiling faces.
tingling spines.
twinkling eyes.
sensual sweaty hands.
hearts racing.
six foot stance.
standing with heads in the clouds.
atop a mountain of love
shouting out loud.
I love this man.
I love this woman.
is anybody listening.
do we care.
no, not really.
it's our wonderland
fantasy island
planes on planes
we lay
we sway
we get up and do it again
Good feelings.
smiling faces.
tingling spines.
twinkling eyes.
signing on dotted lines.
Committed.

I Like the Feel

I like the way it feels
Cool, refreshing, sea smelling breeze
Sitting in a place surrounded\
By sounds of serenity.

My own heart beat touched
By the lover of my soul
Kissed by the universe
Under the spotlight of the sun
By day
And the glow of the moon
By night.

I like the way it looks
A midnight sky
Star filled, I'm a twinkle in
His eyes
Over in the distance is a
Constellation
But his are still on me,
Those two orbits.

Cloudy Thinking

Nebulus occurrences hiding the sun
Of my smile.
The fire of my furnace deep in
The basement of my heart
Is ablaze from sun up to sunset

Nothing or no one puts that fire out
Embers are hot
They smolder and never go out
I'm a flame
And yet I'm flame retardant
His blue will accent my orange

Together we'll be unstoppable
A force like fire hydrant pressure.