My Flesh

My flesh says what you say
I hear your
screams
for blood lost,
and I shed tears
at the thought of
dead justice

My reason says
this could have been avoided
in so many ways
blood lost
shed tears
dead justice

My motherhood
says I've lost my child
my heart grieves
but he's safer now
can I change tomorrow
for some other mother

My Spirit says
be comforted in knowing
God will take care of
the unjust as well as the peace makers
trailblazers
and the martyrs
blood lost
shed tears
dead justice

My flesh wants what it wants
retaliation
vindication
annihilation
but that makes me no
better than the
oppression
disguised
as self defense

If my tears could talk

I'm standing at the table
Telling pages of my life
Like how I came to be here
Amongst this crowd
And as I reminisce
And reflect
The wells of water mixed with salt
Are rising in my eyes
The tears I shed
Are silent
Without words or sounds
But if they had a voice
They'd tell you not to worry
Because I follow a course set
In motion
By the God of all gods
The tamer of the oceans
Every drop is unique
Has it's own name
But not a verb
A noun
Or adjective
The walk I walk is backed
Up by the promise talked
I am but a vessel designed by
Sovreignity

Eyes On Me

I need to see you
From the inside out
Because the you I lay my eyes on daily
Can't be all you're about
There's got to be something
Ruminating deep down within
From love to life
You can't be full of empty
Thoughts
Lust and havoc
I need to see you
A lot
Past the eyes of you
A little deeper
Into the heart of you
Where I can grab a hold
To the hands of your being
So we can walk together
Get somewhere
And be stranded
Dependent
Attached to each other
Over covered
Protected
Connected delicately
Sincerely
Without influence
From the turbulent ones
Who would have us
At odds with one another
Whirling around in a mess
Instead of frolicking
In our garden of bliss
I need to see you
Because I can't stand to be
On this plateau without you
Another eternity longer
That's what time feels like
When you're far removed from me
And spatial reasoning won't bring
You near
Closer in proximity to my current
Atmosphere
I need to see you
As if staring into the sun
Only blinds me to my own faults
And helps me see you
As naked truth
Because I am
Lost with you as I am lost without you
I need to see you
Like the moon sun and stars
Rise and set in unison
Hang out in the heavens
Ajar
Celestial planets
Giving off heat and energy
Radiant rays of radiance
For all to admire
Falling from the sky
As meteors
Balls of rock glass and fire
I need to see you
Like a bandit robs
For the shear pleasure
Of a simple complex thrill
And
A hitman kills because he gets paid to
And a bounty hunter hunts the wanted
To bring 'em back dead or alive
I need to see you
So I can survive